The Life Change Experiment News

Thunderstorm last night – What is it with us and thunder – Everywhere we go its 1 day blue sky then several thunder n rain. Last time the frustration of being cooped up ended up being quite cleansing. Almost like a catalyst to change

I was strangely very very depressed yesterday….. I just couldn’t shake it.

I felt like this whole thing was a waste of time. We have had quite a lot of trouble getting people to commit to things. It seems our enthusiasm and good will does not necessarily translate when people are asked to help others.

I feel we are falling short in this area, since we have limited funds and to be honest most people who REALLY need help need substantial help beyond our means. We have made hundreds of calls to local business and companies with lots of congratulations and good wishes but little physical or financial commitment.

It’s all VERY frustrating. The focus of this adventure was never meant to be a moving charity, It just so happened that after we had so many people email us we felt it our responsibility to at least try to make an difference.

Just like I wrote in my blog the other day, I think the ‘expectations and illusions I had created around our journey caught up with me and I felt weak, powerless, disappointed with myself and totally at a loss direction wise.

Im sure plenty of you know what that feels like. When you have no idea what you are supposed to do with your life, nothing is going the way you want or planned, and you don’t know which way to turn.

I was actually quite worried because I have not been that despondent in a long time. However I think in the light of a new morning, the feelings I have been getting are a necessary shedding of, and leaching of old thought patterns and pretences that I have held onto for so long.

Byron/Brunswick certainly as an interesting energy about it. Almost everyone is in hippie gear eating toffu and walking around bare foot. All the notice boards are crammed with this guru or that coming to town. Meditation and yoga and various other alternative fare are advertised all over the place and everyone seems very laid back.

Bess n I have decided that we will probably end up living as aging hippies eventually haha – little wing returns to her roots (bessies original name when she was born)

So Im going to let go of the need to ‘help’ to feel validated, and do what we can when the opportunity arises, whilst concentrating on talking to fascinating people with inspirational stories and embracing the real change we came out here for. WITHIN