CB013881WHAT ARE YOUR DEATH FEAR & Where are they leading you

What are you afraid of?

I don’t mean things that go bump in the night I mean, what are your death fears.

The things that even though they may appear quite benign to others, you would rather run out of a trench into a barrage of Taliban machine gun fire than face.

We all have them. In fact most of us seem to have similar ones, just dressed up in different guises.Things like:-

Humiliation in front of our peers,

Being rejected

Being ‘seen through’,

Being vulnerable or weak

Being not needed or un loved

Etc

Well this week the universe saw fit to remind me of mine. As the ‘easy going’, self confidant Geoff I liked to believe I was, crumbled into a, tongue tied pile of blubba whilst helping out a with his business.

Faced with the most basic of tasks, talking to strangers and perhaps being knocked back, looked down on or made to look foolish, I realized I would rather be in a foxhole in Iraq under fire than standing here like a lemon doing this!

Every bone in my body screamed QUIT! Get out of here. Tell him he can keep his job and get back to the comfort of your real life.

2125354167_2e4220ae36Then it dawned on me!

How much had I let this fear dictate the choices I had made in my life. And how much has I missed out on in going out of my way to avoid them

Every thing from my job, my relationships, my lifestyle, the income level I settle for, who I love, my happiness and even my outlook on life, were in effect all a direct product of this fear.

We are who we are and where we are in life NOT because of the steps we have taken. But perhaps more because of those we WILL NOT.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t want a childish fear determining the quality, quantity and  direction of my life………. My death fears’s days are numbered !

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